Dear Diary
23rd April
Awesome
Had a really good day today in so many ways
I will not incluede you in all the details of it, but has been really good indeed. Lots of talking (yes we all know I like to talk)
Lots of love
and I have felt rested and full of life and energy.
The weekend has been really good too, Went for a run yesterday (well I had no comp so had to do something right ? ) and tbh TV doesn't mean much to me, pretty much see it as braindead entertainment, computers you at least have to interact and use your head a little. So I ran 4 kilometers (I am not used to running so that was ALOT for me) and I walked 3 kilometers. I took walking breaks in between the running to not die. we have a great track in a forrest not far from here, there is lights all the way around on the track in the evening and most of the time it is not to muddy to run or walk there since they put out sawdust on it once in a while. I chose the 5 kilometer track (there is a 2.5 and a 5) I walked there and walked home, when I was done had a cold shower, and damn just felt so good to be out and doing something physical. Today I have more than enough pain in my behing and thighs, but it is a good kind of pain and I am actually considering starting to do it on a regular basis (yea I know I used to think ppl who run R crazy too) but I can see the attraction now. You feel so free, releif all thoughts and just focus on the next step, next hill, the nature you pass, the clean air. ofcourse beeing a newbie I had to focus on pulse, breathe and some pain too. But man it was so worth it, 1½ hour of total freedom. Gonna invest in some better shoes and see if I can keep myself in line and get off my ass to take a daily trip. In the beginning I will probably have to do a few times of just walking thou, like today. To painfull to run, at least untill you get the muschels warmed up nicely.
Okay I realise very little of my diary has involved my ingame life, but I mostly write what I feel in the spare of the moment and so it has been mostly about the RL, also alot of things ingame could improve and I would hate to make this a whining place, I want to to share my feelings and thoughts, rather not make it alot of bad ones.
I had a really sweet hogglo hunt in team, we were on a roll and I was playing most of the evening, got 450 ped as the biggest ped value loot, not even enough for HoF list but was still damn nice, then a 300 and 220 and a 95 ped ESI, and 2 small ESI's (below 20) both of us had a huge profit and a great time.
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A small lyric for you too: althou maybe can be seen as depressing I find it rather cool !
We've waited far to long to, watch it all crash and fall through,
So when you feel like shit you gotta keep on pushing,
If you saw the world through my eyes, then you wouldn't feel so high rise,
Its time to take our chance you gotta sit back and hold tight.
There's forces working in our heads but we don't understand them,
I need a map to find my way out all the time,
Theres curses lurking in our heads but we don't want to find them,
We need to come back down and face what we've become.
The more I think the more I wish I could push stop then hit rewind,
What I would give to have a day back then when no one really cares,
I remember when we all used to kick back take days off school,
So many times I've smiled so many times I cried but never did we try,
Never did we try, because.
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And a small poem (yes yet again) I have many inside
Give me wings to fly
Let my hand touch the sky
Before forcing my return
Only to lead me there again
Show me the color of passion
Let me feel your heart
As we fall together
Bring me your pain
But give it with tenderness
Lead me thru the dark
Let me fall hard, but land soft
Show me strenght
You are the one
The only who can take me there
~Nakia~