Real life
I went to the child psychologist with the oldest one Thursday. Luckily they found out she is not having an eating disorder as first thought. It's obvious something with her body, that makes her throw up. Normal people would feel nausea, but she feels "like to throw up". She gets pills that helps her removing the nausea and she eats like hell. She is not obsessed with the thought of loosing weight or anything. So now we will head to a specialist to make some tummy research and stuff.
Unfortunately they found out she is having an attention deficit disorder, which explains why I'm having so much troubles with her. When knowing this and looking back, I can suddenly see the pattern and see why she has been reacting so differently from other "normal" kids on things. She is having AD/HD, which also means to have an "Over hyperactivity". To describe how it is, the psychologist told us, to compare it with when we sit at a boring lecture and feeling like falling asleep all the time. The body gets restless and you turn on the chair all the time. She is just having that 24/7. Also "normal" people have the ability to close off for outside influences. Kids/people with AD/HD can't do that. Their world is like watching 20 different television screens at the same time...
We are now being invited to a big meeting with the social worker we are connected to in the local government, with her doctors, a new psychologist connceted to the city, her teachers and us (herself, me and Peter). She probably has to go to another school with only 5 kids/teacher - because her big problem now is that she cannot concentrate but instead she is "all over" the classroom and that gives much disturbance - but that also means, she gets behind in the class.
On top of this, I understand now, that her rebellion way of acting is not only coursed by her difficult teen age (she is 14). Those kids have it - but to the extreeme. The biggest problem is, that they regret things now and here, when you talk with them - but few min. after, they forgot. It is not because they don't wish to "be better" - but they do not learn from their mistakes.
All this makes things so difficult and I'm so tired sometimes from yelling. But knowing what is really wrong removes eventually feelings of guild you naturally have as a parent and gives you hope, because you can see there is help to get. She will recieve some medicine, which will calm her down and help her ability to have a view and finish things. For now, she is not able to finish things like homework, appointments etc., because all is too messy in her head and she is not able to tell apart things in her head.
I now understand why it has always been so difficult for her to learn simple things as the little table, the weekdays, what months or year we are in etc. Also she cannot remember when we make appointments and she gets so angry, because she feels the whole world is against her. When she was 7 or 8 I made her small notes on all things in her room. Were to storage different toys, school books etc. Writing down: Wake up at 6:00. Brush your teeth etc. at 6:15. Make your lunch at 6:30. Remember your lunch and book of the day. Remember to brush teeth before sleeping... etc. Well, it seems I was ahead back then to help her keeping things in a scedule. I just didn't know why it was so difficult for her to do it herself.
Dear Lootius, I hope the medicine helps, though I read somewere it is possible to feel the difference already after one week. The kids, themselves, don't feel they really change, but they feel people around them are being nicer, teachers, parents are more understanding etc. - even though the big change is actually at themselves!
Only time will tell - but even though I have hardly slept since we were told about it, since a lot of worries about her future and if she can maintain a normal life whenever she moves from home etc. including nightmares, which I'm sure is coursed because all of this - I'm in a pretty ok mood because I / we now have a road to follow. Time will tell were that lead us to!
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On another notice. I'm going to look at a new apartment tonight. I found one for the same amount of money nearly, that I pay now - but 50m2 bigger ... Man, when Peter moves up here we could really use a little more space. My appartment now is 109m2 - so it's not small .. it's just ... we need room
I will have to take pictures with the phone and send them to Peter, since he will not be here again before Thursday. _IF_ we manage to get it (and if we like it), we will have it already from first of June, which is the day he will start working in Denmark too! Can you spell "_s_t_r_e_s_s_"?
Oh well, I look so much forward to having him here
In the Universe
Keep skilling armor crafting. Got an HoF and some globals since last time. The returns are getting more shitty though - should that happen? I'm doing level 2+level 3 crafting now. I don't feel the difference though - and Im not looting way as many bp's as I did with the level 1 bp. Actually it all got worse when I crafted level 3 bp - so I stepped back to the level 2 again
My bp's rates are from 60-86 now on the 2 bp's im using. Settlers and pioneer shins! I have 1.4 or so engeneering skills and around 900 crafting armor skills (I believe - have to look when heading game again).
WoF is over for now. Both Team Amethera and Eudoria did a good job. It was pretty fun and I look forward to next years WoF
To the team-mates! Thanks for a great time!!!! Lootius bless you.