Howdya all!
I am posting this post since I am once again sober. From my addiction to both Entropia Universe and Entropia Forum. And I really must say it sucks. Im really split up for the moment and don't really have a clue about what I should do so I figured that I could get some thoughts from all of you here, and maybee some help to reflect over the situation.
The story goes something like this:
I first started to play
EU as it was
PE a few years ago (2-3?). After playing for a while I stopped with it but got back to it once again about a year ago. After that I have been playing several hours a day, trying out pretty much everything there is to do on Calypso. I have been mining, crafting, hunting, using mindforce, mentoring, piloting, you name it. And I loved most of it.
As you maybee have noticed, I have also been spending quite some time here on
EF. My regular scheme was usually to log on to
EF as soon as I got home from work, browsing/posting until about 9 PM after which I usually logged on and kept playing until 3-4 AM (Local times).
A little more than a month ago I started to reflect over my losses and deposits. I relized that I spent alot of money ingame. Thinking about it now makes me regret it a bit, but if I count the cost/hour it isn't that bad. After all, I had fun doing so. Everything has been a personal challenge. Skill this up, skill that up, try to hof in every category (Which I actually achieved a while ago) and latest was the 100 global-thing, when I tried to global on all mobs.
Anyways, I decided that it was time for me to start getting some of my money back and do something less expensive ingame, my daily repairbill of close to 1k PEDs was a bit above the top, even though I got somewhat of an return. So I decided to chip every single skill out and sell every single item I owned. My new call was to start promoting events and starting up somekind of buisness ingame. It was a new challenge to me.
Here came the first punch in my face. After selling everything I owned, the PED-cardbalance wasn't even close to what I estimated. Fair enough though, I have always been a little optimistic, so I figured I could only blame myself for not beeing realistic.
So I decided to host an event, and got great help from people here on
EF, aswell as support from my soc-mates. Once the event started I got myself a kick in the nuts. Only 14 participants if I do not remember wrong, of which 6 people was socmates and friends. Wasn't it more interesting than this? After putting so much time to it, advertising, trying to get tickets sold, I ended up with nothing more than my dick in my hand. Because
MA decided to make my event boring, by not giving the participants more than a total of two globals if I don't remember wrong. This really put me off, but thanks to thoose who came.
So, apparently event-hosting wasn't meant for me. Or maybee it was just bad time or bad luck or something. I started to plan a second event, a PvP event on Eudoria. But I didn't register it.
Why!? I was out drinking a weekend. When I logged on the very next day I had spent more than 7 000 PEDs gambling on abrer laser sights while beeing drunk. Oh whoopie..... And thats not 7 000 PEDs minus returns, thats 7k+ in pure losses. At this point I felt that I am a... A... Hmm.... Fuckup?
It kept on going and I decided to put my money in storage and fly up to
CND to avoid further accidents. After this I logged on daily to chit-chat with my soc-mates and go on a few hardcore settler/opallo hunts up on
CND.
The 12th of June I went on vaccation. As I left to the airport I was thinking "How the hell am I supposed to survive without
EU/
EF for a week?". The week went by without any trouble, didn't even think about
EU actually. The last day I woke up with a terrible pain in my stomach and after the flight beeing almost nine hours delayed I finally got home and went to bed. Straight to bed.
The next day I visited the hopsital to see what actually was wrong. I got to know that I had been drinking too much so my stomach was pretty much screwed. I got some painkillers and other stuff and went home and watched TV. Yes, TV, I couldnt even bother about turning the PC on.
A few days went by, I logged on to
EF and checked half the first page of new posts. I just couldn't bother. I didn't feel like it. I started the client loader but closed the window as soon as it loaded, no urge to get ingame.
Today I finally got ingame to say hi to my friends. But for some reason I didnt feel comfortable with it. I don't really feel comfortable writing this post.
In order to make a long story short: I totally lost interest in both
EF and
EU and don't know what to do. For the moment I just feel like cashing out the remaining money and forget about the game. But I don't want to. I really don't want to as I know how much I enjoyed this game and this forum.
I am really split.
Leaving
EF and
EU would definately suck. But staying ingame and here would be forcing myself to do so, and wouldn't be fun either. Taking a break would most likely make me forget about the game.
What the hell am I supposed to do?
Best Regards