Nakia's Diary

[Nakia]

Dear Diary

25th April-07

Today has been a good day
been kicking back, listening to music, amongst other things.
No rock music for me today.. you know those days where you just want to stay in bed all day ? it's been such a day today, and been loving it.

so to set the mood I got a little tune, this one many of you may already know;

Jack Johnson
Banana pancakes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_BoZ_Qdyl0

And ill post the lyrics with that one; so cute
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Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside...
But Baby, You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song is meant to keep ya
From doing what your supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
Ill make you banana pancakes
Pretend like its the weekend now

And we could pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside

But just maybe, laka ukulele
Mommy made a baby
Really don't mind the practice
Cause your my little lady
Lady lady love me
Cause I love to lay here lazy
We could close the curtains
Pretend like there's no world outside

And we could pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Aint no need aint no need Mmmm MMmmm
Cant you see cant you see
Rain all day
And I don't mind.

The telephone is singing
Ringing its too early
Don't pick it up
We don't need to we got everything
We need right here
And everything we need is enough
Just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow
You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song is meant to keep ya
From doing what your supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
Ill make you banana pancakes
Pretend like its the weekend now

And we could pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Aint no need, Aint no need
Rain all day and I really really really don't mind
Can't you see cant you see,
You gotta wake up slow

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Yes I am a music addict, and I LOVE it.. just lay back and let the music fill your soul with cream and strawberries (or banana pancakes)

And I found this guy one youtube, he has some real nice talent
also writting his own songs, now I know sum ppl do not like when ppl does copies of other artists so I will post one of his very own songs here,
As I could find no lyrics I had to write it down myself, so excuse if any spelling mistakes

Here goes
Name: Bradly Akeman
Tune:One Day

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVbuclr93ao

Sometimes I lay awake at night just to watch you as you sleep,
And wonder why someone so beautyfull is lieing next to me
And I am sure you would think that I would never do that,
Because it's not my style, no way
But girl I can gurantee you,
your gonna miss me one day,
your gonna miss me one day, yeah..

I know I can't explain why I do the things that I do,
I grap my keys and walk out that door and id say that baby I love you,
ill ask for your forgiveness when I know that what I did was wrong
can not understand hard enough when all you wanna do is talk
you may not think it now
and you may not know just what to say,

but girl I can gurantee you,
your gonna miss me one day,
your gonna miss me one day.. yeah
ohh love now.

so ask yourself if life is that bad with me around everyday
And I know that I am not that perfect man you once dreamed you always had.
And I may not be tall, dark and handsome.
Sometimes to modest for your taste,
But I am the man you chose and for that baby i'd like to say
And plz don't give up on us now, we have come to far to walk away

and girl I can gurantee you your gonna miss me one day
your gonna miss me me one day.. yeah
your gonna miss me one day
your gonna miss me one day....

*sigh lovely isn't it*

I could post many more but uhm.. well you would probably get tired pretty fast lol..
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You sometimes feel you are so filled with emotion that you could almost burst? either good or bad, ofcourse the good is the best feeling
All I need now is the rain to start falling, it is a warm spring day and the air is moist, making every breathe seem harder to take. After the rain it will feel so fresh, like a new start. The sun will come out, but before it does, lets take a walk in the rain, get soaked to the bone, laugh while changing into something dry when returning to the warm comfort inside.
Now that is what I feel like doing right now, unfortunently the rain has not started falling yet but I am sure it will come.

I really hope you all had a wonderfull day too, like I did.

Nakia

[Nakia]

Dear Diary

9th May-07

Back
Been quite some days since my last entry in my diary

there are several reason for that, but mainly I have just been busy doing other things which I have enjoyed alot. I spend some time on the bike, spend some time outside (believe it or not I actually almost got a tan ) helped get boat ready to put out on the sea again, had some summerhouse vacation.
and many many other things.

Anyways I am back, like it or not and got some energy for some writting.
I does take some energy to do even thou it is all typeing. I do not like just writting for the sake or writting something I like it best when I feel like I actually have something on my heart. (besides from post spamming which I do find funny sometimes)

Morning:
Another beautyfull day is rising, speading it's warmth over fields of green freshly cut grass, small drops of water disapering with the touch of the sun sweeping over everything as daylight breaks the night.
The stars going to hide untill the night will take over once again, but the stars in your eyes wont ever fade,
thru sun, rain and storm they shine bright, lighting up the fire that burns within my soul.
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Passion
My passion is you, my passion is writting down what fills me up inside, my passion is the fire you see in my eyes.


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Several people has sent me poems since I started my diary, and all of them are absolutely wonderfull. For the future if someone would want a poem posted in here you are more than welcome to write it to me and I will post it with your name as author

so ill start out by posting a poem which was sent to me, I know I am allowed to post this one, not sure if they want their name credited to it or not so will wait with that

Poem
Your eyes won't let my thoughts go back to sleep.
Your words draw me across 2000 miles.
I don't know you at all, and yet I know
You are better than my friends of many years.

The days I spent with you are like a tape
I play, rewind, play, rewind, and play.
Whenever I remember something new,
I feel as though you touched me on the cheek.

I miss you as the grass awaits the wind,
Or as the morning sky awaits the sun.
Although I look for you in every doorway,
I find only the darkness in my heart
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Life
Life is a stage where we all have an act to play out, when our time is up someone else will preform their act. ~ Nakia
(inspired by a friend who is in the drama business)
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Heartbeat

Your heart speaks the thruth, pure and innocent
Looking for the next beat, the next breathe to come alive
If every man, woman and child could see into your heart
you would never have to cover up the thruth with what they expect

If I could look into your heart would I see what your mind leads me to belive ?
Sweet love and carring warmth

Reflection
Reflection in a tear can be the reflection of both sorrow and joy,
There is shame in sorrow and perfection in joy
A tear of joy will be caught with a gentle touch,
A tear of sorrow will keep falling, leaving a mark in your soul


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My birthday is comming up soon and I am really looking forward to that, hopefully will be an awesome day that I will not forget in the near future.

sadly some of the past birthdays I have held has not been all that great and I am really looking forward to having a normal birthday, that may sound funny to many of you. But for me it will be absolutely excellent, and something I am really really looking forward to. (well not the fact that I am getting older , could go without that part of it) but hey with age comes wisdom, or so they wise people say, so I guess I will enjoy that bennefit with getting yet another year older.

Wish my dad was here to celebrate it with me, but I am sure he will be looking down on me and sending me a thought or two.

getting late now and I should consider getting some sleep, since I am a B person I tend to want to stay up late and sleep long/late too. But I have been putting in alot of efford to keep a normal day rythm, so I better continue that pattern.

Nighty everyone and hope you have an excellent day tomorrow

[Nakia]

Dear Diary

13th May-07

Days to remember

Had a really good weekend, my birthday is tomorrow and we celebrated it this weekend since monday is such a doll day to meet with friends and family, and it sucks to wait a whole week to do so.
Ofcourse there will be a few things on my birthday (tomorrow) probably a nice dinner and such. I got most of my presents already

Got some ingame too, TY sooooooooooo much, absolutely LOVE them !!!!!!!!!!
was supposed to go on a trip today which I was really looking forward too but the weather has not been in my favor so it will have to wait till next weekend, but guess that leaves something to look forward to which is not all that bad either.

Thrunderstorm

The morning started out warm with grey skies as far as the eye could see, deffinently going to rain, bring nice fresh air as the rain cleans out everything.
I went for a walk as the rain started dropping, it quickly turned from a few drips to pooring down, and then the thrunder came, I do have some respect for beeing outside when it is lightning and thrundering but at the same time it is one of the most facinating experiences to be out in and watching nature at work. marvelous display of lightning lighting up the sky and the rain falling to the ground with amazing speed. soaking you to the bone, but with the warm air it just feels nice and cooling.
as the storm passes it allows for the sun to come out, rain still falling making a display of colors to take over where the grey was before, rainbows are wonderfull don't you think ?


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Walk with me

Wash away my sins
Clear my mind with your tears of wisdom
Hold my hand as I open the door
Lead me as you lead the blind
Let me take it one step at the time
As I pass thru the door and step out on the other side

If I should trebel and fall
Don't leave me behind
Reach for me and pull me to my feet
Don't let me turn and run
For I only fear what is new
You are my guide thru the thunder

Show me the path that leads to the light
To the world that lies ahead
Give me strenght as I give you love
Compliment my weaknesses
Share my strenght
Give me eyes to see the world like you do
And ill give you love to love like I do.

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and time for a lyric that I find a bit cool (yes yes morbid again)

Breaking benjamin - dance with the devil (again girls, go listen to him... he is to listen to)

Here I stand, helpless and left for dead

Close your eyes, so many days go by
Easy to find what's wrong
Harder to find what's right

I believe in you
I can show you that I can see right through
All your empty lies, I won't stay long
In this world so wrong

Say goodbye,
As we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight

Trembling, crawling across my skin
Feeling your cold, dead eyes
Stealing the life of mine

I believe in you
I can show you that I can see right through
All your empty lies, I won't last long
In this world so wrong

Say goodbye,
As we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight

Hold on
Hold on

Say goodbye,
As we dance with the devil tonight
Don't you dare look at him in the eye
As we dance with the devil tonight

Hold on
Hold on


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A few words about life

So tomorrow ill be yet another year older... hopefully it will become one of the best years, that is what I truely wish for.
I have come a long way over the past few years and have had to learn alot of lessons the hard way. I do not pity myself but I do think I lived to see alot more than many my age.
It is easy to let it get you down, to give up hope for the future and dwell upon the past. You have to overcome what life puts you thru and more important you have to learn something from everything as well. Both the good and the bad, do not let the bad things change the person you truely are but let them help you to become wiser. Many become negative and lose their glow as they see more bad than good, but this is not an option, if someone fails you do not take the lesson never to put trust in someone again, if your heart is broken do not fear to love again, these are not the lessons we are supposed to learn. Trust in yourself and become stronger, be willing to take a risk or you will never live thru the best of times.

What we learn from the bad times are different ways to handle ourselfs, signs that show we are going down the wrong path, these can in the end help us to avoid the same hurts as we have experienced in the past.

Truth is life is all about the chances you take, it is about staying true to yourself, and not letting others break your soul.

Fly high, fall deep but at least I can say that I touched the sky

Those who dare not fly wont fall hard either, but they will never thouch the sky and trust me, the falls you live thru is worth it when you fly
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did I confuse you enough now ? I guess I should save some of my bla bla bla for another day

Edit: I really need to add a bit more bla bla bla ROFL.. just a lyric then ill let you go for now
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Wvw6GrpmN4

I like your pants around your feet
I like the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

And I love the places that we go
And I love the people that you know
And I love the way you can't say no
Too many long lines in a row
I love the powder on your nose

Ooooh
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

I like the freckles on your chest
And I like the way you like me best
And I like the way you're not impressed,
While you put me to the test
I like the wine stains on your dress

And I love the way you pass the check
And I love the good times that you wreck
And I love your lack of self respect
While you're passed out on the deck
I love my hands around your neck

And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out
And now I know who you are
It wasn't that hard
Just to figure you out

I love your pants around your feet
And I love the dirt that's on your knees
And I like the way you still say please
While you're looking up at me
You're like my favourite damn disease

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[Nakia]

Dear Diary

23rd May-07

Again

so again a few days (okay maybe more) since I last posted, but as I said a few times before it is so much nicer to post when I have collected a bit of energy for it.

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Promises

As you took my heart,
You promised to be gentle.
As you took my hand,
You promised to lead me.
As I gave my all to you,
You promised to stay forever.

As I look into your eyes,
It brings me to tears.
As you pull me into your arms,
It brings me to my knees.
As I put my faith in you,
You fail me.


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Beauty

What makes someone Beautiful ? that way they walk, the way they talk, the way they look ? Is it they way they carry themself, the arguements they make, the cloth they wear, they makeup they use.
To me a Beautiful person is someone who is wise, someone who knows who they are and someone who can stand on their own, even thru the darkness.

Beautiful people come in all shapes/ages and sizes. when someone says the eyes are the mirror to the soul I would partially agree. Indeed they can tell you alot, but in the end of the day I guess it is all in the eye of the beholder.

For me someone Beautiful is someone who is not afraid to be who they are, someone who has hope, someone who can love, someone who cares.
Beauty is not perfection, beauty is a the small thing that makes us unique.


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Crazy little thing

This crazy little thing called life,
Makes you laugh thru the rain.
Makes you smile in the dark.
Makes you fall in love on a borring day.


This crazy little thing called life,
Makes you fall as you walk on clouds.
Makes you cry when you were feeling just fine.
Makes you uneasy when everything is easy.


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Stairway to heaven

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
And when she gets there she knows if the stores are closed
With a word she can get what she came for


Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
And you know sometimes words have two meanings
In a tree by the brook there's a songbird who sings
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven

Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west
And my spirit is crying for leaving
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees
And the voices of those who stand looking

Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

And it's whispered that soon, if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forest will echo with laughter

And it makes me wonder

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow
Don't be alarmed now
It's just a spring clean for the May Queen

Yes there are two paths you can go by
but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on

Your head is humming and it won't go in case you don't know
The piper's calling you to join him
Dear lady can't you hear the wind blow and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll
Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven
And when she gets there she knows if the stores are closed
With a word she can get what she came for


And she's buying a stairway to heaven


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[Nakia]

Sorry this is going to be silly, but did you guys know how dirty swedish people are stumbled over a swedish song and ............... it is.......

En liten historia...
Avgör själv om den är sann.
Här kommer den.
Varseegod.

Klockan är fyra, kanske är dax att gå hem.
Det står nån vid min sida, ja jag vet inte vem.
Och ja jag tänkte, ja men du är väl okej.
Bara bara bara bara du vill följa med mig hem.
Viskar i ditt öra (Jag har inga trosor på)
Just det som du vill höra (Fan klockan är mycket ska vi gå)
Säg vill du vill du vill du vill du följa med mig hem? (För ja det är dax att gå)
Min säng är stor och det är ganska bra fjädring i den.
Så följ med mig hem, för jag behöver lite värme.
Ja, det ska jag få. Vi kan leka hela natten.
Dunka mig gul och blå.

Klockan är fyra, och det är dax att gå hem.
Han står vid min sida, ingen skönhet men kan få värma min säng.
Vi kan väl leka doktor du och jag?
Du kan va tempen och tre hål det har jag.
Så vill du vill du vill du vill du följa med mig hem? (jaa... det är dax att gå)
För vi kan poppa popcorn, vi kan hoppa i min säng.
Snälla följ med mig hem, för jag behöver lite värme.
Ja, det ska jag få. Vi kan leka hela natten.
Dunka mig gul och blå.

Jag vill se ut som svenska flaggan när du är klar.
Mörbultat, Underbart.
Dunka mig gul och blå.
Jag vill att du ska komma om o om o om o om igen.
Japp, japp... Dunka mig gul och blå.

Ohh shiit... klockan är åtta, upp... försvinn.
Vem fan är du? Och vem ställde min klocka?
Klockan är åtta, och jag börjar jobba klockan sju.
Usch aj, vad är det som har hänt?
Jag minns ingenting av det som hände igår. ousch aj...
Vad är det här?
Även om jag var full skulle jag aldrig ligga med det där.
Du sa att jag sa att jag behövde lite värme.
Men det är inte sant.
Men om det mot förmodan stämmer,
Varför känns det som att jag blivit påsatt av en elefant?
ousch neeh....Nej var är det där.
Även om jag har vart full skulle jag aldrig göra såhär.
Ohh yes.. Klockan är fem, ska hem och göra mig i ordning för att börja festa igen.
Ohh ja visst har jag ont sen igår, kanske ska va med en tjej.
Äsch jag tar vad jag får, för jag behöver lite värme.
Ja, det ska jag få... Vi kan leka hela natten.
Dunka mig gul och blå.
Dunka mig gul och blå...


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Dilemma, should I translate it to english ....

Warning not for kids...

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A small story
Judge for yourself if it is true
Here it comes
Enjoy

It's 4am maybe it is time to go home
There is someone standing at my side, I don't know who
and yea I thought, guess you are okay
just just just just as long as you will come with me home.
whisper in your ear (I have no panties on)
Precisely what you want to hear (urgh damn it is late, should we go?)
tell me tell me tell me tell me will you go home with me? (because it is time to go)
My bed is big and has quite good springs in it
so come with me home, cause I need a little heat
Yea that's what I will get, we can play all night
Bang me yellow and blue


It's 4am maybe it is time to go home
He is standing by my side, no beauty but he can get to heat my bed
Maybe we can play doctor you and I
You can be the thermometer and 3 holes is what I have
tell me tell me tell me tell me will you go home with me? (because it is time to go)
Cause we can pop popcorn, we can jump in my bed
sweetie come with me home, cause I need a little heat
Yea that's what I will get, we can play all night
Bang me yellow and blue


I want to look like the swedish flag when you are done.
Used, wonderfull
I wan you to come again and again and again and again
Yea yea, bang me yellow and blue


Ohh shit, it's 8am, get up.. get out
Who the hell are you ? and who set my alarm
it's 8 o'clock and I start work at 7
Usch what happened?
I don't remember what happened yesterday
What is this ??
Even if I was drunk I would never be with that thing !
You said that I said that I needed a little heat
But that is not true...
But if it against my belives ia true
why does it feel like I got squashed by an elephant
osch... no what is that
Even if I was drunk I would never I would never do that
Ohh yes, it's 5pm, going home to get ready before I go out to party again
ohh yea ofcourse I am in pain from yesterday, maybe I should be with a girl
argh I will take what I can get, because I need a little heat
Yea that's what I will get, we can play all night
Bang me yellow and blue


...

Just wondering, would a song like that even be played in the US ? I mean with the censor rules

[Nakia]

Dear Diary

26th may-07

Wishes

You ever sit down and think about what you really want in life ? what makes everything worth while ? what do you dream of ?
yea I have wondered what life is really for, but I have not come near an answer to that one... so I think we we are all here to play a role and that is enough for me.
I am sure dream of world pease ect, which in reality probably wont happen.
But just for yourself what do you want to get out of life ? what if everything took an end tomorrow, would you be satisfied or would you have alot of things you had yet to do.
I am the kind of person who, would probably not have done everything I wanted because I often think there is a new day tomorrow, which so far I have been lucky enough to be right in

I think more than anything I just want a "normal" life atm, my life has been rough and rather unusual a long part of the way, what I wish for is what most people have and do not apreciate enough.
Someone they love, their family close to them, stability in general I suppose.

I have been moved around alot in my life, from when I was very young till now, my mom and dad got divorsed, went with my dad untill he was to sick to handle everything. then went to live with my mom again. then moved out from home when I was 16 because me and my stepdad could not keep the peace. since then I have been everywhere and nowhere.

many of the choices has been mine and many has been the wrong once, I leaned from them I would like to tell myself at least, but I am sure there is more for me to figure out and more things to overcome, for this year my wish is that everything will be very ordinary, not huge experiences no huge falls

So what do you wish for, and what makes your world go around ?

for me it is the people I know, the people who has been there for me, the people who stand still reaching out their hand when everything has been chaos.


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Here is for the people who are on the move, and for the people who found a place to settle down.

Road trippin' with my two favorite allies
Fully loaded we got snacks and supplies
It's time to leave this town
It's time to steal away
Let's go get lost
Anywhere in the U.S.A.

Let's go get lost
Let's go get lost
Blue you sit so pretty
West of the one
Sparkles light with yellow icing
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun

These Smiling eyes are just a mirror for

So much as come before those battles lost and won
This life is shining more forever in the sun
Now let us check our heads
And let us check the surf
Staying high and dry's
More trouble than it's worth
In the sun

Just a mirror for the sun
Just a mirror for the sun

These Smiling eyes are just a mirror for

In Big Sur we take some time to linger on
We three hunky dories got our snakefinger on
Now let us drink the stars
It's time to steal away
Let's go get lost
Right here in the U.S.A

These smiling eyes are just a mirror for
These smiling eyes are just a mirror for
Your smiling eyes are just a mirror for


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Holy crappers this gal can sing, girl powah !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLolzqe3ZLE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9UqrD1fmjI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdRJou6pMX0

sound quality is questionable at times thou

[Nakia]

I just wanted to share a lil lyric/song with ya all

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L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you

Cute ain't it.

It is a nat king cole song


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Going to take a nap might check in and write a bit later