Lykkes diary

[Lykke]

SOOOOOO ... pay back time is near! I'm gonna pay back a poll made of my pictures recently ... and you can guess who will be the lucky guy!



DOES the priest have hair or not? IF he did, how would it look like - is the big question? I have a few nice ideas myself - but feel free to +rep me with more ideas if you have any

BUT BE PREPARED - I might make you a challenge in the thread with a tiny EF-connected price

TATTAAAaaaaaa

[Lykke]

Egypt is waiting So is the rest of our lifes! Not only will a life-dream come true, seing the pyramids - but maybe another life-dream will come true in Egypt = Swimming with dolphins! I WILL take the diving-courses with the priest and I guess taking some before Egypt will be wise! Sometimes one just has to overcome fears like drowning and claustrophobia

Maybe it's because I once dreamt that I was drowning. It was awfull! But when the cheast-pain was over, there was like nothing but silence - and I swam around in the sea like if I was breathing down there! AH well - I have always had weird dreams

Today it is Monday! Normally Mondays are terrible because half of the times that means that Peter just left and I will have to wait 12 days to see him again. BUT half of the times Mondays means that there is only 4 days left untill I will see him. Today there is only 4 days untill my bebe visits me again! This time we are going to have a weekend with no stressing plans and lots of snuggling

"S.O.S. (Rescue Me)"

Lalala lalala la la lala la Ohhh
You know... I never felt like this before
Lalala lalala la la lala la Ohhh
Feels like.. so real

I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes up
I'm aggressive just one thought of closing up
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue
'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you
I'm the question and you're of course the answer
Just hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancer
You make me shaken up, never mistaken
But I can't control myself, got me calling out for help

S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard,
I can't take it, see it don't feel right
S.O.S. please someone help me
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

Just your presence and I second guess my sanity
Yes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanity
My tummy's up in knots so when I see you I get so hot
My common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lock
Take on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right
[CD version:] Take me on I'm put desire up in your arms tonight
[Video version:] Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight.
I'm out with you, you got me head over heels
Boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel

S.O.S. please someone help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making (Y.O.U.) this hard,
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it ('Cause you on my mind)
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me (someone come and rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

Boy, you know you got me feeling open
And boy, your loves enough with words unspoken
I said boy I'm telling you, you got me open
I don't know what to do it's true
I'm going crazy over you,
I'm begging

S.O.S. please somebody help me.
It's not healthy... for me to feel this way
Y.O.U. are making this hard (are you making this hard for me, baby?),
You got me tossin' and turnin' and can't sleep at night

This time please someone come and rescue me (someone rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind, it's got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind got me losing it ('cause any time)
I'm lost you, got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me (best of me), I'm losing it

Lala lala lala lala Ohhh
Ohh ohh lala lala lala lala
Oh oh

[Lykke]

~~ 3 DAYS ~~

The new bombings in Egypt are worrying me! But looking back I guess this unfortunately always will be an issue down there. I remember some years ago when they closed down travells to Egypt and we all said: lets wait some years, untill it gets better. The thing is; It never will. I can, as VF suggested, cancell the trip! But that wont mean we will be able to go there next year more safe though. We will take this trip and just hope that the fanatic extremists wont be at work that week It DOES take away some of the fun though - but maybe some fanzy drinks will make it up again

I forgot to write, that I might join a friend at some Joga courses! Always wanted to learn that. She will though join me start Kick-boxing again. I miss that sport! But that wont be untill after the summer though. I have to run myself up to the hard exercise there is at those trainings - DAMN!

Thats all for today folks!

Have fun

[Lykke]

~~ YOU ~~
just
ROCK MY WORLD




Thanks

[Lykke]

I know, life is all about decisions you make! You wanna go left or you wanna go right? Whatever you choose, it will show you a new way and a new beginning on something! But what if everything you choose was meant for you? Would there be any need for making decisions or would it be enough just to follow your intuition?

Life atm
... is good! I'm so much in love! It is really wonderful but scaring at the same time. Wonderful because the feeling of finaly "fitting perfectly in" is a feeling I have never had before - nor in family, among friends, in school or in relationships! Scaring because the distance makes it more hard than I ever imagined.

I am a person who rest nicely within myself. I like to be alone and just make time fly by while doing everything or nothing! I am a loner - and I don't really need company. I would not say I am asocial, because I am not! I just don't NEED to have people around me all the time. My x was the oposite kind. He always had friends over. And their friends and wifes and kids! OR the neighbours .. or someone he just met ... or he wanted us to visit people and I had to make a whole world of excuses of why I couldn't go *sighs*.

But I miss Peter around me - and I feel lonely and half when he is not here. If I never met him, I would not know. What I WOULD know is that something was missing - as I felt in all this years - but I would not know what! It is now, when I know what was missing in my life, I am scared to loose it again! And he thinks like I do, it's still incredible!

When we sat on my balcony and smoked cigars and enjoyed the evening, the silence and each others company, drinking wiskey and wine (I went for the cuba caramel later ) - the moment was so perfect it's hard to describe. It wasn't anything fanzy - just something we did and it felt so good! If the weather was better I am sure we could have been there all night, just pondering about life and our own existens! Even the moment without words was perfect!

This is the man I want to spend my life with!

In game
... I am confused! The fact that the priest is not playing anymore other than coming into game and chat, makes EU different! EU was the place were we met and maybe that is why I have great difficulties by leaving? There ARE memories there which I wont leave. But things are not fun anymore. Everything - game, the players - got so serious. I feel like a child who finaly realised that santa doesn't excist. The dissapointment and sadness is overruling! When I log into the game I log in with a positive feeling, that this time I will get the same exciting feeling as I did when it was still fun! But it doesn't happend. EU got empty and all I think about is how much money I spend and how little I get in return! I have lots of great friends in there - and do understand it has NOTHING to do with you. If it wasn't for you, I would not log in at all!

The priest and I am playing other games together. I am not quite "there" yet, but I feel I am getting to the point were I might be "well done" and ready to enjoy something else fully! I am seriously pondering about selling my skills and only keep the most necessary things to "play" in EU for fun!

Take care

[Lykke]

Learned a new word today: Truce!

Truce is more than a white flag - It is more long term than that. It's a standoff in a battle.

The above is the priests explanation. Tomorrow I will have a look in the dictionary and see what it really means




Btw ...
I wanna be a good smelling cigar in my next life
cubanian cigars rock!

[Lykke]

papers papers PAPERS

I am sure you know the feeling. You have piles of papers but can't pull yourself together to clean out! New bills or letters arrives, you pay the bills and place them in one of the piles. Every day you look at the piles getting bigger and bigger and your bad conscience is tearing you up - but you KNOW it's a shitty job and therefore you just hesitate and put off the pain.

Yesterday I finaly got some energy to clean out! I had to make new folders for the papers, since the old one is containing papers from my time with the x. I don't need to keep any of that! Why should I?

I clean it out and get rid of it all. That means it's not filling up either in my apartment or in my mind!

This weekend I will clean up all the rest! I have no reason for keeping stuff. Some people keep old letters and pictures and whatever. I don't need to do that. I am not the kind of person who go looks in old letters and sits and dwell on them for hours! I am more a person who connects situations by other things like a place, a smell, a piece of music! And why the hell should I keep an old wedding picture with someone I don't even like? Or all the greetings cards we got at that time? I already did throw a lot of that stuff out - but hey, now the rest will go too

When a new area in life begins, it's important to focus on that and look forward NOT dwell over the past! And I just look forward to make space for all the new and exciting things that happends in my life with the man I love and the children who means the world to me

[Lykke]

We came to the conclusion, that The Church needs a face lift! When we made the church we had a blast running around beeing foolish followers of Lootius. We blessed people - and the fun part was, that people returned to us either with a small donation from their HoF/globals or with a great thanks because they had luck right after!

Things changed. Personally I believe things changed for me when joining the event team. Yes, that was very exciting times and fun to make those events we made, but things got terrible serious.

Another thing was, that we spend most time on CnD, which is an awesome place to hang out, but that meant we made a distance to the soc and it's members since we could not find time to soc-hunt or do other fun things as we used too! I do not regret any of the hours I spend on making events for you guys/girls on CnD! It was a nice experience. But I am sad that might have been the reason for CoL to "fall apart" or for me, that I became a "stranger".

As for the LG. Yes, the priest got real dissapointed by MA at that point. Enough was enough, not saying that we, as a tiny society could have had a change, but we would have liked the feeling that we COULD have a change if it was not for the lag and mistakes made by MA at that point!

Now we are back with the wish, that you will openminded welcome our soc as the silly, funny and pervert role-playing soc, we once were. To those who keep on saying "stop the Lootius crap", I just want you to remember one thing! In EU you have to create your own figure - and your own history if you want to. Maybe EU is build up differently than other games because it should be a RL-mirror-game - but if it wasn't in purpose that you could create Roleplaying scenarios, why should MA make the invironments for it? If you play other online games you would know, that in there you can choose what kind of races, classess, professions AND RELIGIONS you want to play with. And I know EU is not another WoW or Ryzon or whatever. But EU is free for people to roleplay or not!

The Church of Lootius - the name - tells you who we are! We are brothers and sisters - mostly RL non-believers-of-anything-else-than-life-energy - who have a blast in being able to roleplay something silly as nuns and monks who worship our beloved God Lootius until Death!

We found our path! You can't hold us down! Just prepare to be entertained

OH - and if you need a blessing? TOUCH THE SCREEN

DO NOT LET THE BUG'IEMAN TAKE YOU!
KEEP IT FUN!