Lykkes diary

[Lykke]

Its time for me to continue my small poetry pictures!


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[Lykke]

Well, its all about ballance, I guess.

When you are out of ballance it shows in every thing you do. I have been online too much the last months. A good reason is, that its mostly only possible for me to "see" my bf when Im online. The pc has been calling after me from Im awake untill I go asleep - just to be able to be "near" him. Its hunting me at night even. But theres no other possible way! And wont be near future - so I guess thats a part in one of the scale pans, I have to deal with.

But PE is also taking a lot of my time and energy. Real life is though catching in on me - also my kids needs me. I still need to find myself after the divorce. Today the final papers came - that the seperation was accepted Made me very glad. One more step in the right direction.

Thursday I went to bed "early". Not to sleep - but I felt like drawing again. I havent been painting or drawing for a long time. I need to draw - as I need to write, to express myself and my feelings. Its just a part of me I have to put into the other scale pan to make the ballance. The possibility to be creative is very important to me. Not having the right inspiration or support for this is one of the reasons for leaving the x. So why hesitate? And even though it was this tiny drawing - it felt good. I wanna share it with you - as I see it as a part of my "new" old life beginning. When I say old, its because I have been drawing a lot before the x.


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I am not intending to quit pe. But I will use my free time more wisely. I guess though I will be most on the Forums and maybe less in the game. Just untill things is settled more down. I have to find the ballance between the online world and the real world.

Your life is like a huge puzzle. Sometimes you just have to take all the pieces, put them into a big bag - shake them - and put the puzzle together again. You have to decide, what you want in your life - and what you dont want in your life. Why keep things that makes you unhappy, insecure, holding your down, sad - when you actually can choose things that makes you happy, satisfied, fullfills you - make you intact! It IS your life. Noone should tell you what to do or not to do.

If you feel for it? Why not just do it! Yesterday will never come again!

[Lykke]

YAYAYAYAY

4 months with the priest

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I LOVE YOU BEBE







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HAHHAHA just kidding, just kidding *G*G* pewwwww hehehee that was fun ...

[Lykke]

Posted it in McCormick too .. cant help it .. it was fun making


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Got the nice bp some days ago. Skams Ladies handbag. Dont know really what to use it for - I need GOLD for making the stuff *G* ... but its sure fun to have

I have been crafting much lately - actually I miss hunting!

[Lykke]

The past
Today will be the last time ever, I will mention the x and old stuff from that time. Why today though? Well, a huge stone felt from my heart when we sold the house, but today I am going to the bank and sign the final papers AND get some of the money

After that I am moving the very last few things from there ... and I considder that to be the last time I will ever place my foot in that house. It is not like I will say all memories from there was bad. Not at all. My little Amanda-girl had her first 3 years in that house - a lot of nice and cute memories with her playing in the garden and stuff - and my big girl, Sarah, grew up to be a teen there. BUT but but ... that I put into my memories of the time with my children. Other stuff from there is a chapter of my life I dont feel I need to slobber over.

Its NOT that I am regretting anything. Many many years ago I decided never to regret a single thing in my life - as it all goes into the huge pile of experiences. But I rather look at the future than on the past!

Future!
Tomorrow I will go to Holland! No need to explain how happy I am

PE
Hm - yes, I am not spending that much time in there, but still. I decided to deposit some money to celebrate the selling of the house ... *G* ... I really realised, that money is gone very fast in there though I will spend some on new nun-clothes ... I really really need that

Be safe all - lots of hugs

[Lykke]

Just hit me ... when reading the thread about the real life meeting, what COULD happend ... NOT that I believe it would though






Just imagine ...

[Lykke]

.... ~ ~ ....

If you try only to remember
all the good memories ...
the bad ones will fly away
... and like butterflies
they will never grow old
... but suddenly disappear
in the sunshine

Wrote this many years ago, and found it yesterday in an old poem-diary of mine. Thought I would share!

[Lykke]

Just arrived from Holland. I miss my bebe ...