Im sober! And it sucks :(

[RidingDirty]

Howdya all!

I am posting this post since I am once again sober. From my addiction to both Entropia Universe and Entropia Forum. And I really must say it sucks. Im really split up for the moment and don't really have a clue about what I should do so I figured that I could get some thoughts from all of you here, and maybee some help to reflect over the situation.

The story goes something like this:
I first started to play EU as it was PE a few years ago (2-3?). After playing for a while I stopped with it but got back to it once again about a year ago. After that I have been playing several hours a day, trying out pretty much everything there is to do on Calypso. I have been mining, crafting, hunting, using mindforce, mentoring, piloting, you name it. And I loved most of it.

As you maybee have noticed, I have also been spending quite some time here on EF. My regular scheme was usually to log on to EF as soon as I got home from work, browsing/posting until about 9 PM after which I usually logged on and kept playing until 3-4 AM (Local times).

A little more than a month ago I started to reflect over my losses and deposits. I relized that I spent alot of money ingame. Thinking about it now makes me regret it a bit, but if I count the cost/hour it isn't that bad. After all, I had fun doing so. Everything has been a personal challenge. Skill this up, skill that up, try to hof in every category (Which I actually achieved a while ago) and latest was the 100 global-thing, when I tried to global on all mobs.

Anyways, I decided that it was time for me to start getting some of my money back and do something less expensive ingame, my daily repairbill of close to 1k PEDs was a bit above the top, even though I got somewhat of an return. So I decided to chip every single skill out and sell every single item I owned. My new call was to start promoting events and starting up somekind of buisness ingame. It was a new challenge to me.

Here came the first punch in my face. After selling everything I owned, the PED-cardbalance wasn't even close to what I estimated. Fair enough though, I have always been a little optimistic, so I figured I could only blame myself for not beeing realistic.

So I decided to host an event, and got great help from people here on EF, aswell as support from my soc-mates. Once the event started I got myself a kick in the nuts. Only 14 participants if I do not remember wrong, of which 6 people was socmates and friends. Wasn't it more interesting than this? After putting so much time to it, advertising, trying to get tickets sold, I ended up with nothing more than my dick in my hand. Because MA decided to make my event boring, by not giving the participants more than a total of two globals if I don't remember wrong. This really put me off, but thanks to thoose who came.

So, apparently event-hosting wasn't meant for me. Or maybee it was just bad time or bad luck or something. I started to plan a second event, a PvP event on Eudoria. But I didn't register it.

Why!? I was out drinking a weekend. When I logged on the very next day I had spent more than 7 000 PEDs gambling on abrer laser sights while beeing drunk. Oh whoopie..... And thats not 7 000 PEDs minus returns, thats 7k+ in pure losses. At this point I felt that I am a... A... Hmm.... Fuckup?

It kept on going and I decided to put my money in storage and fly up to CND to avoid further accidents. After this I logged on daily to chit-chat with my soc-mates and go on a few hardcore settler/opallo hunts up on CND.

The 12th of June I went on vaccation. As I left to the airport I was thinking "How the hell am I supposed to survive without EU/EF for a week?". The week went by without any trouble, didn't even think about EU actually. The last day I woke up with a terrible pain in my stomach and after the flight beeing almost nine hours delayed I finally got home and went to bed. Straight to bed.

The next day I visited the hopsital to see what actually was wrong. I got to know that I had been drinking too much so my stomach was pretty much screwed. I got some painkillers and other stuff and went home and watched TV. Yes, TV, I couldnt even bother about turning the PC on.

A few days went by, I logged on to EF and checked half the first page of new posts. I just couldn't bother. I didn't feel like it. I started the client loader but closed the window as soon as it loaded, no urge to get ingame.

Today I finally got ingame to say hi to my friends. But for some reason I didnt feel comfortable with it. I don't really feel comfortable writing this post.

In order to make a long story short: I totally lost interest in both EF and EU and don't know what to do. For the moment I just feel like cashing out the remaining money and forget about the game. But I don't want to. I really don't want to as I know how much I enjoyed this game and this forum.

I am really split.

Leaving EF and EU would definately suck. But staying ingame and here would be forcing myself to do so, and wouldn't be fun either. Taking a break would most likely make me forget about the game.

What the hell am I supposed to do?

Best Regards

[drifter]

IMO... get out and enjoy RL ... EU will be here when you get back.

The friends that you have made here will remain friends although they may be wondering where you have gone.

Maybe a break is what you need.... even though you said you might forget about EU.

Dont force yourself to stay if you are bored... get out there and do other things (i mean RL things lol).

Again.. EU will be here when you return.

maybe... if you want to cut fully from EU... cash out and use that for a nice little RL present.

PS. yes.. eu when drunk is BADDDDDDD lol.. but oh so fun :p

Good Luck RD... with whatever you decide.

Oh yeah.. you can always be a troll... (well.. more of one )

[Vixen78]

RD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must say it is nice to have you back on the EF!!! But in all seriousness, your Health and Happiness comes first!!! Seems alot of us have gone thru similar feelings...pondering should I just cash out... or should I try something new... I say do what makes you Happy!!! Don't worry about the EF, the community, or your friends... none of it is going anywhere You can always surf the EF anytime you wish and choose NOT to post no harm done.... You can pop into EU at your leisure and no one will think less of you should you choose to spend less time ingame... As far as the friends you've made here/EU they'll understand and will most likely wish to keep in touch( I know I would) The ball is really in your court Do what's best for you.. whether EF/EU is full time, part time, or none at all!!!

Best Wishes RD!!!!

[ZippO]

Just take a break you will come back... We all come back Best thing to do is maybe cash out what you feel comfortable with but maybe leave a bit so that when you do come back you will have something to work with. Leave perhaps your favorite items and clothing Don't worry we all get frustrated but never sell your wardrobe! Take a month or two off and come back and then see how you feel

[McCormick]

Dont feel bad posting this !!! Most of my PE videos are done in drunk state. And yes I enjoyed beeing drunk when playing PE as well.

We are all in the same boat. (Ok, some always have a greater boat next to us ;p)

I tried to make a PE pause as well...it didnt really work, but trying to is already the 1st step.

Id say, sudden thoughts of cashing out are quite normal in todays PE, but feel free to re-think about it.

Maybe check out reallife, it can be funny as well.

I used to do total nonsense ingame (no peds involved) when I was bored with the usual stuff... and if that became boring I logged out and switched on TV...just for example. PE is not everything.

Maybe try & play other (non online) games now and then ?
(Thats already a PE pause)

Just some words from a PE player, whos not a doctor at all. But again, PE is not everything. There is more out there and you know that.

[Bernz]

I say;

play other games (with no RCE(only credits)) for few days and you will soon be back in EU.

Serriouslly, I can tell you the real life is running after me too especially in summer time. Maybe it's your case.

It's normal to take a break after playing the same "game" for years.

[RidingDirty]

Thanks for the replies

I will start out with a two week break right away, as I will be moving and wont have any connection to the internet for two weeks. I'll see what how I feel after that.

[Medea Delorace]

Noowayy! You'r not Sober! You'r RidingDirty!
What if the real Sober finds out that your trying to use his identity?

Laughs and jokes aside, I'm glad that your trying to straighten out some of the big parts in your life. Carry on with that! Just let me say that if you decide to leave us, do so but don't uninstall the game and don't think about never playing it again. I had a rought time that was pretty much like yours's beeing now. It ended up with me leaving PE for 3 months, but every now and than I keep returning to this forum to read and get a few laughs. That includes a ingame interaction for some hours a week.

You'll figure it out. Just don't push things.. Good luck

[mackbrich]

See you when your mack's-ass-addiction returns